Self-loathing

Self-loathing is opium of the writer. And for a guy who just recently got back at writing - not the work crap, not the forced-put-a-bullet-through-my-head-already shit - then that just has to flow. Even if that means going down an old road that eventually will lead to rock bottom.

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